Conference!!!

I love the new elders in Angers! it's constantly a party when we're around. There is elder Platt who is dying (done with the mission) in two transfers and Elder Toledo is dying in 3 transfers. So they're in there dying ville right now. Then there's Elder Orton the Bleu. he's actually kind of quiet, but i think it's because all the elders only speak french in front of him, even in the apartment. which is kind of mean, but at the same time immersion is good. Elder Ortons story is an interesting one. He actually reported to the mtc end of october a year ago. he went through the mtc got to the mission field and was assigned to serve in Melun (south paris area). served there for two weeks,but then had to go home. But now he's back! it must suck for him, because he didnt have the mtc before this so he's forgotten everything! but its still cool that he came back! 

Conference was the best thing ever!!!!! I still haven't seen the last session, but the rest were really good. We had an amis come for the sunday morning session, so i had to watch it in french.... i understood nothing really. all i understood was that they talked a lot about prophets, priesthood and revelation. which was really good for mimi, because we just finished teaching the restoration. but she was kind of falling asleep toward the last talk before the middle hymn. apparently she'd gotten no sleep the night before, so we told her she didnt have to stay. so she left half way through that session, which is sad, but i was super happy because i was able to go back and watch the rest in english! but conference was so good. I had heard from other missionaries that conference for missionaries is like Christmas. It's so true!!! It was the shortest conference i've ever experienced. The talks went by so fast. And i was disappointed when each session was over. i actually think that the breaks dragged by and were longer than the actual conference.

but yeah i loved it. In between conference was just a party. we spent all day at the church on sunday.  and the breaks with the elders was super fun! i'm worried are district is just going to be a party, but we'll see. 

this week there was a lot of stress with timing of things. we had a lot to do, which is good, but is super stressful at the same time. but it was a good week. I'm just glad that we actually have rdv's now instead of just contacting all day long like my first two weeks were. 

exchanges are this week and i'm so happy because the stl's arent making me stay in angers. so i'll be going to nantes again!

This week i got the phone.... the dreaded phone... i hate it with all my might. everytime it rings i pretty much think i'm going to die. we switch off every other day, but still. I have to answer and talk to people in french. hearing people on the phone in english is hard enough sometimes, its even worse in french. Most the time i answer, they say something, i say "comment" which is like "what?" and then had it to soeur P.... i guess thats kinda cheating, but i literally can't do anything. 

So at this point i can understand pretty much everything. but i still cant speak. and i feel like my speakings gotten worse... I dont know why but each morning we practice teach and i feel like i can do it and then we get into the actual lesson and i cant. i cant say anything i want to say, or it doesnt make sense... it's just terrible. it sucks so much. i'm trying so hard, but at the same time i'm going no where. I just feel like i've lost confidence in my speaking abilities, which is really bad because i feel like i'm losing everything i've already learned.

I gave two soft invites for baptism this week, one was in english so you think that would take off the pressure. nope. i'm pretty sure the invitation was worse than the one in french. This week has been a lot of prayers. and the thing is everythings going well with our amis, we're still seeing miracles and stuff, but i really am just not doing well with teaching in general i feel like. But thats why i'm being trained....  who knows maybe i've started to get lazy, because i have a companion that knows what she's doing. i hope not. maybe it would be good to train next transfer, even though that'd be terrible. i really hope that doesnt happen. but thats not for another 5 weeks. 

speaking of which on the 9th will be my 3 month mark. how are these months going by so fast! it's not even fair! this week i'll have only 15 months left. and then before i know it i'll be at 5 months left. i don't like it at all. especially since sisters actually get cheated with where the transfers fall. so technically i'll only serve for 17 months. but if i had fast tracked i would have served for 18 1/2 months. wish i could have longer. seriously everything goes by so fast.

I really hope you don't think i'm just depressed and having a terrible time. because as i said, its a party in angers with the new elders and we have amis that are progressing and its just always super fun with Soeur P. Its just hard to see my progressing in the language sometimes. But the mission is such a great experience for me because i've really learned to trust in Lord in everything. I really couldn't be able to do anything i'm doing here without the lords help. And i'm truly grateful that he does help us. He's always there for me and it's such a comfort.

I love you all so much and miss you! Genesis 12:13

~Soeur Farmer.

1. The castle, so beautiful!!!!

2. You know just walking past a normal lit up chappel. it's not even the cities grand cathedral...

3.THIS is the cities grand cathedral. you know only a block from my house....

4. so every trainer (mother) and bleu(daughter) always buys something matching. usually sisters buy cute matching scarves or things they can wear as a missionary outside. ours however was an impulse buy.we were shopping last pday and we came across a whole section with giant tiger faces on shirts. it was so ridiculous, we just had to buy them. it's our pj shirts now...